I was considered to be a puny child.. in my early teen years I was an extremely thin girl who invited everybody's attention... Often, people used to ask my mother about my eating habits and she had to answer them politely..and get angry with me later for no reason at all...
I enjoyed being slim.. because I looked good in the mirror..those buldging bones on my lower neck.... fleshless hands and especially and more importantly those flat abs..ah..those were the days!!!
When I hit the age 18.. my body started changing..from nowhere I became 52 kgs from 39 kgs.. which was really good for my height.. and I acquired a certain structure for my body which was widely appreciated and admired...
Well... that was only for a short time..after that I started to takeup an eating disorder and everything went out of control...within 2 years of time I have gained 14 kgs and didnt even notice it...it was when I started to suffer severe pain in my right knee and we consulted a doctor and she told me to reduce weight...
It was not so easy to reduce weight when you live with your parents.. as they never allow you to diet...because "you look fine to me... and you don't eat what ever you are supposed to eat..and if you start diet.. I am telling you ..you will disappear and we will have to search for you"... good joke..
That was the time when I moved to Tamil nadu for my masters'.. and stayed at the hostel.. one of my degree classmate was there with me and she was shocked to see me as I caused her to suffocate because of my overweight...
Somehow I made a decision to lose some weight and become my old self... but it was not easy.. as I was in mid 20s and it is not that easy to lose weight at that age...but anyhow..I was determined...
Our hostel had a gym..free of cost and I was the only one who used it constantly.. our hostel food was so terrible that I was actually happy to go on a diet...
After 3 months of diet and exercise... I lost 9 kilos.... I became jealous of myself.. but I didn't stop there.. I worked even harder and lost 3 more kilos... now I was back where I started... 6 yrs ago...
But as I was progressing in my weightloss venture, I became more greedy and tried even harder... by that time I was back home after my studies...surrounded with good food and encouragement to eat more and more.. but I controlled myself and managed to lose 2 more kilos thus acquiring a very balanced BMI for my height...
When I came to UK.. I was 48 kgs.. I was so happy and proud of myself that I let myself slide away from diet and exercise..so after 8 months of no dieting and on and off exercise routines I have gained 8 kilos... which is outrageous..now I am at the border line of being overweight as before...
So I have started my diet and exercises on a full swing..only thing is I am not losing weight as fast as I did 3 yrs ago... it is very hard now.. I have to work twice as hard as before.. may be because of the increase in age and the character of my daily routines are the main cause..
I have to lose 6 kilos and 20 inches all through my body in total... I am not sure how long its going to take ...but I will reach there eventually...
Whenever I go to the gym or do my ab exercises inside my room, I always get tired or bored pretty fast.. so I just say to myself... Burn..fat..burn.. as a motivational slogan in order to pull myself up and work even harder...
